Saturday, July 28, 2012

OBX 2012

It's been awhile since I last posted, but today starts one of the best days of the year. I'm finally heading to vacation in the Outer Banks with a bunch of family/friends. We embark upon our journey at 4.30am so I should probably try to get some sleep considering I will be one of the many people driving. I've got my books and my music to keep me company while I'm not driving and also to have something to do while I'm basking in the glorious sunlight. :)

I can't wait to get back though. I've met, well started talking to an old friend of mine again. We went out on a date this past Monday and things went well. He's in the Army and has been for the past 10 years. It's actually how we met. But we talked about me joining the Air Force and the more we talked the more I realized it is something that I want to do. So when I get back from my week long vacation I'm going to sit down and have a talk with my parents and let them know that I am joining as an Officer in the United States Air Force. And then it's off to the recruiting office to sign up. Somehow, deep down, I always knew I was going to end up in the military. I just never gave it real thought until recently. And I can thank my ex, Kyle, for that. My love for him will never diminish, but will always have a place to call home in my heart. I can honestly say that he was the first man I ever truly loved and that I will always thank him for allowing me to know what love is. But it's time to pick myself up and move on with my life.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012


Well I actually have the day off from both jobs. Lot's of cleaning to do since I'm rearranging my room. But I'm taking a break from all of that to write to Kyle and to contact a recruiter for the Air Force. I've been thinking about joining for a while now, but haven't ever had the courage to just go and talk to someone who is actually in the Air Force. So I went online to look for the nearest recruiters office and I'm going to give them a call before heading over. Just to set up a meeting more or less. I love a Marine and my family is full of military personnel it only seems right to join. I'll get to meet new people, get to see new places all the while serving my country.

I love you KDK. I'm sorry about the loss of a great man in your life. Your Grandpa is smiling and looking down and after you. He will always be with you in your heart and in your mind.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012


I got my first tattoo today. I will admit that it hurt a lot and that I'm not getting another one.

The Trinity Knot represents my Irish background and the musical clefs depict my love for music and that it takes two entities to create harmony not just in music but in love as well.
I'll admit it hurt like crazy! I'm content with one. 

My Gladiolas are blooming! They just brighten up my day when I see them. 

17 more days and I'm beach bound! I cannot wait to finally get the chance to just relax and enjoy life for a week. "No shoes. No shirt. No problems." Kenny Chesney had the right idea all along. I can just leave all the stress and worries here in good ol' PA and enjoy the sun and sand and good company in the Outer Banks. The house is beautiful with both the ocean and the sound surrounding us. 

House with the sound behind it. 

Sigh.... How I long to be there right now, just listening to the sound of the waves crashing into the shore and watching the sunrise out over the ocean from off the balcony of the house. Or see the wild life just going about their business before everyone wakes up and crowds the beaches and the water.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Always and Forever

My Gladiolas are starting to bloom! I'm so excited to soon be able to gather them up and place them periodically throughout the house!

My sketches of  the painting I'm attempting to do. Now all I have to do is recreate them onto the same canvas...

Today has been just one of those days. Since you told me good-bye my days have been long and never ending. And my nights have been no better. I still smile and my heart still quickens when I see your name pop up on my phone. ... I heard from you today. You told me you're grandpa's dying. My heart bleeds for you and your family. I just wish that I could somehow make you see this. To somehow make it known that I'm still here by your side patiently waiting for you to come back. I told you as much, that I'm always here for you no matter what. Whether you believe me or not is up to you. I still love you and I always will. I consider you and your family a part of mine and it hurts me to know that you're hurting and that I can't do anything to help ease the pain. You, as you are, are my first and only true love. My heart is forever yours, and has been since the day we met. I love you KDK Always and Forever.

Monday, July 2, 2012

Live Laugh Love

Live with Courage. Courage to do whatever it takes to make you the person you are inside and out. Don't let anyone tell you that you're not good enough. Have the courage to be you no matter what people say or think, and to have the courage to stand up for what you believe in.
Love with Faith. Love with the faith that you are loved in return. That one day you will find that person who will love you and will stand by you not only at your best but at your worst as well. Have faith in love. Love is a matter of  the heart. Trust in it don't be afraid to fall. If you have faith in the person you love you know that he or she will be there to catch you.
Laugh with Hope. Laugh whenever it's convenient, at all things, and hope for the best to come out of every situation. Have hope in your dreams. Hope that they will one day come true. And if they don't just laugh it off and find a new dream to hope in.

KDK I love you Always and Forever.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

New Painting? Maybe...

I'm using both of these pictures in my next painting. I've been listening to Josh Groban a lot this past week and his song Lullaby has been on repeat at night time. The lines "Hush now baby don't you cry/Rest your wings my butterfly/Peace will come to you in time/And I will sing this lullaby" are what inspired my idea. Here's hoping that it actually works and turns out like I envision it to.